a journey of hope & encouragement as we walk thru this life
6 Feet Under
I felt like I couldn’t breathe, like every breath I took was just enough to sustain me but it never felt like it was enough to fill me. I felt like instead of my home dying, I was. I envisioned the fire going through every part of my home & destroying everything in its path. But it felt like it was me that was in the fire, like it cut through the very depth of my soul. I cried for the loss of my home, the loss of the life I once owned & the loss of everything I had attained & created was gone. It was buried 6 feet under & I couldn’t do a damn thing about it. I wrote in my journal, sometimes all day. I read my bible & meditated on Gods word till it penetrated the very depth of my soul. I replaced the destructive fire that consumed my thoughts with a fire from God to refine & redefine my heart. I want my life back! I will not be defeated! I shall prevail! Though the fires destroyed my home, it did not destroy me & my loved ones!! I had to look at what was ahead of me, putting all that was gone behind me. What was 1st things on my list for the day? I had to prepare my mind for the day. I had to guard my heart from even myself. It was easy for me to pick on myself, should of, could of would of. Who am I? What am l? I am created by a God who loves me more than I will ever know. I started to believe in a way like I never did before. He brought me through the Fire that tried to destroy me BUT it only destroyed my home. That’s the reality, you are alive & that is something you have to accept! I no longer live like I am 6 feet under. I now live like I am 6 feet above….
I am an artist at heart. I love people, music, writing, decorating, nature, art and the Creator of it all! I have traveled across the U.S. and over seas. I currently live in Paradise, California with my husband and family.
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