How do you move on when you can’t see the road a head of you? My life was turned upside down, like someone had pulled the rug out from under me and left me to fall down the rabbit hole. Tossing, turning, no sleep, tired, numb, shutting down, turning off, tuning out, running from my life. I didn’t ask for this, this was not by my choice! So what are my choices now? Do I stay in this useless state of mind or do I choose to get up from these feeble knees, wipe the tears from my eyes & put one foot in front of the other? I chose life, not the life I was living but I chose the life that I would choose to remake. It was not easy to clear the smoke from my head. I had to replace the futile, negative, pity party attitude and replace it with healthy choices! Those same things I told my kids all those years, I was now telling myself. I held on to a thread of hope & found the verse that would shape my life with a newness that would sustain me. I had to get rid of stinkin thinkin & change my heart to look to heaven, not this world, a heavenly hope. The verse I hung on too? “He gives beauty for ashes”.
