Memories. Sometimes they feel so distant… then I catch a glimpse of someone’s tear filled eyes & all those mixed emotions come flooding back again. Life has a way of doing that. We walk along on shallow ground till suddenly, we feel the depth of life’s surprises when we least expect it. It stings a bit. Can bite beneath the hardened shell we hide behind, that protects us from these deep demises. How often time can cover up our sullen numbness, like a blanket that comforts the chill & warms our toes. But we cannot escape the facts of life & face our fears, if we always stay bubble wrapped in our safety zone! I do that. Don’t want to deal with what I feel. I grasp for a word to express this empty tone… solemness. Like a picture of a faceless painted man wandering into nowhere land. A fantasy of sorts but it captures a vision of those distorted inner thoughts. Perhaps reality is less exciting, when we’re digging in the trenches. Working hard to escape the past & searching for a way to find our future. I can accept that. I know these fleeting moments will quickly come & go. Whenever I’m worried, troubled or afraid, I know I can depend on the One who is always with me… however I am, whatever I feel or wherever I go. He gives me peace of heart & mind that only comes from Him. I’m standing under the shadow of the Almighty, praying to stay in tune with whatever He plans for me. Everyday life. It’s putting one foot in front of the other, no matter what my path shall be. I’m trusting in the shelter & safety of His love & whatever He has for me!
“If I ride the wings of the morning, if I dwell by the farthest oceans, even there your hand will guide me, and your strength will support me.”
Psalms 139:9-10 NLT
